There've been a couple changes in the last year. I don't know where to begin talking about them. So I'll just jump in...
I find I am no longer on a midwifery path. I love it, I do. But while it calls to my heart, it doesn't call to my soul. For that, we go back to my childhood. A career test in 6th grade that told me what I had already sort of figured out, but hadn't said out loud. And when everyone found out my test results, though I was proud, they were disturbed.
And because everyone around me was obviously uncomfortable with this, I didn't pursue it any further. I would eventually go on to start studying forensic anthropology, but it wasn't the right fit. I tried on a couple different hats. Maybe psychology! Nope. Medical transcription! Well, it pays the bills, but...no. I really thought I'd found it with midwifery. But when I dug down deep, I kept coming back to death work. It's me. It's what I pushed down for years but eventually resurfaced.
I'm hoping to get started on prerequisites for mortuary school sometime in the next year. We're done having babies. We're settling into a routine. Just waiting for the timing to feel right.
The past year has also presented me with some health issues. Joint and muscle problems, exhaustion, headaches, depression, gut issues. I tried this and that change to my diet; add this, cut that, switch to whatever. No one thing really fixed it. Then, over the past month, I put a concerted effort into going gluten-free. My instincts have told me for a while now 'it's the bread, stop eating the bread.' So I listened. Now, I only wish I had listened before. I've discovered it's not normal to feel like you've eaten an expanding lead weight and then walk around in a brain fog after eating toast. I THOUGHT THAT WAS NORMAL. I've always felt like that. Ha! I'm so glad I know better now. I feel amazing, better than I have in years.
In other news, the kids are growing like weeds. We're still homeschooling and living a hippy life. Still knitting, still cooking, still lots of DIY.
I'm hoping to blog more. I'd like to use this space to talk about my knitting projects, my coming adventures in gluten-free baking, homeschool, kids, as well as mortuary school and deathy topics. I miss using this space. But I wonder if I should create a fresh space for all this? Something to mull over.